Let me clarify

You might assume that i am depressed over my parents death. you would assume wrong.I miss them both a great deal. but i know that they are both with God and i will see them again. My daddy was a southern baptist preacher and my momma was a saint. honest to God she was. Her name was Teresa and she would help anyone. If little kids needed school shoes and supplies it did not matter that she didn't know them she bought the stuff for them. she even built a well in a third world country so people could have clean drinking water. I know God needed her more than i did. It hurts don't get me wrong, but she is ok and i will be to. My daddy sold insurance until he hurt his knee and had many surgeries and no longer could work. He was not able to preach because of it. He was tough but I loved him. He found out he had lung cancer on my birthday. He was gone 6 months later. The man fought he really did. we drove a 100 miles one way every day for radiation and chemo. He just wanted to live ling enough to see my brothers little girl be born.He missed it by 7 months.I know that he was there anyway. Remember I see dead people. My mom never comes around. I knew she wouldn't, she always said we she died she wasn't coming back. I really got to know my daddy in the last few months of his life and i will cherish those talks forever. I did not know my mother was going to die. her heart exploded and she died instantly on the kitchen floor. I had talked to her twice that morning. She was coming to pick up my girls to spend the night with her. She never made it. She died on Sept.9 2005. Her mother died Sept 9,2002. Needless to say I get a little worried on Sept.9. not a good day in this family. I had thought about coming over to her house that morning but thought against it because i was going to see her that afternoon when she picked up the girls. I often wonder if it would have mattered if i had came.Would i have been able to save her or just watched her die. They say it was immediate. I don't know and It doesn't really matter now.You can't go back.