hey ya'll

Let's clear it up right now, yes, i am a little drunk. i don't hardly ever drink but tonight i have. at least i am home and not driving around. if i make no sense sorry.
I have once again been fighting with two old men. i can't help it they talk about black people,gay people, and mexicans and i hate people like that. i really hate people who are racist. can't stand them. evil evil evil people i hope that the new year is aweful for them. everyone else.......happy new year!!!!!!!!1

a christmas wish

I got a book for christmas The Last lecturer and it got me to thinking. If you only had one more blog to write, what would you say. If the next day was your last, what would you want to world to know? i will write mine now and write yours too. leave me a comment so i can read yours ok.
Here it goes, I want Trent to know first off that i was so hard on him only because i believed he could be great. Lilly needs to know how wonderful she already is. And Emily , She can do anything and more than likely will.
I would want everyone to know that this world is not the end, and everything you do now affect the future everything. Nothing is unimportant not a single act, everything affects the rest of the world. So smile at everyone,hold doors open for people, and always always help.
I want everyone to never stop chasing the things you need or want. No matter how out there your dream is, go after it.
Help everyone chase there dreams. There is no greater feeling than knowing someone is living out there dream and you helped.
Realize that you are here for a reason, find out what that is and do it. It doesn't matter how small those little things are. Maybe your reason for being here is grand like President or something like that. But you do have a reason and that reason will help change the world.
that is what i would want the world to know.

Rustin duke is a lier.

RUSTON DUKE IS THE WEATHER MAN. HE LIED IT IS STILL COLD AND WET. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WARM BUT IT ISN'T. LIER LIER LIER.

weather crazy

it was 78 yesterday today it is 30. crazy east Texas weather. christmas day they are talking about 70's again.. so i guess on christmas day i can wear shorts and flip flops. can't put up you clothes for seasons here cause never know one day form the next.....

crazy racist fools

So I have been following a forum smoaky.com it is supposed to be about sports right. but there are crazy racist fools on there. They are forever talking about gay people, Mexican people, and black people. I can't stand people who are so racist and then act as if they are not.
I mean hello, if you act crap about any other group of people who are most assured a racist. This woman said her and her son where touring colleges and she was pissed because there were pictures and posters of Obama and rappers everywhere. As a result she wrote letters to the schools and threw a fit. I told her first off, This is not High school and your son id not important enough that all the other students must give up their freedom of speech to make her happy right.
This woman also is a teacher so me being evil like i am told her that she better be carful of what she says because her racist crap could get back to her school district and cause her to lose her job. i feel like doing it myself. Would that make me a bitch?
I would not want a racist to teach my child. i doubt that the Mexican parents or black parents want someone like her teaching there kid. They quote the bible as there reasons for hate. Correct me if I am wrong but the Bible is all about loving each other. Jesus loved all of us. no matter our sin. God also said not to judge.

lola bear and grandy

Lola bear is my 2 pound baby. she is sweet and the prettiest chihuahua i have ever seen. out of all my babies she is the sweetest. funny little dog(don't tell her she is dog, she thinks she is a bear hence the name Lola bear). she is so little she can't jump on the bed or off so every night i have to put her on it or she will bark at me. every morning i have to let her down or she will bark. she also does hair if you ask her to make them pretty she will use her teeth and "FIX" your hair.she is almost 4. my little baby.
Grandy is the evil puppy dog. she is a 2 year old German Sheppard. she has ate an entire yard swing. all of it. she really likes to play problem is she is huge and doesn't know it so she is rough. she broke my glasses.i can control her with a water bottle she is scared of it. go figure.all her faults she is beautiful. black and tan best looking dog by far.

me again....you're so happy you know you are.

been a crazy week so far. last night i went to my husbands christmas party. he got drunk but i don't drink. i am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. i have been clean and sober for almost 20 years now. never have gooten myself back in trouble with it.yeah me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but back to my week. i also had to go the to the fourth grade christmas play. my baby was by far the prettiest one up there and i'm not just saying that she really was. i spend 50 bucks on a new shirt and boots so she would be. she wanted to look better than "GOODIE TWO SHOES MACIE" her words not mine. she is a funny one. she is really short she looks like a 5 year old but she is 10. she is a firecracker. mean as the dickins' and not afraid one bit of anyone. not even her brother who is far bigger than even me. 15 yr old varsity football player.
lilly bug is my 13 yr old baby. she is crazy. she is dsylexic and boy crazy. i don't think she has ever seen a boy who wasn't "HOT". i don't worry about her because once she broke up with her boytfriend cuz he tried to "stick his tongue in her mouth" she is a talented artist if i can keep her focused. she would rather watch tv.
i left them all home with trent last night while we went to the party. now him and lilly don't get along at all so needless to say i came home to a mess.

why can't you just give me what i want

ok there's the deal i have been fighting with some bitter old man who could not live out his high school football dreams i have really just got tired of it so i started cussing to try to get myself banned but could they do that no they just suspended me for 10 days. why couldn't you just ban me forever. come on now when i get back i am going to do it again.

FUNNY FUNNY FUNNY

OK, so this morning my son (who is 15) was mad at me because i made him get up and go to school. He called me selfish. I said "selfish, i do without so you can have stuff" He responded "that's how you are selfish. You only do without so we will feel sorry for you" Goes to show you, you can not win no matter what you do. If i were to spend all my money on me, I am Selfish. On the other hand, i do without so my children can have stuff, I am selfishly making people feel sorry for me. Thought that was rather amazing. OH the mind of teenagers.

Let me know.

As i stated before i quit my job. I worked at a school. I have decided that i really want to go back to school myself. A long time ago i was in college to be a nurse, i had to stop because my daughter had to have open heart surgery. Should i go finish nursing . Or maybe something like probation officer. i always wanted to do somthing in criminal justice. I could not do the elementary thing anymore, my tolerance level had been reached and people would not take kindly to me hitting thier babies.

Merry Freakin' christmas everyone

Well it is Christmas again. yeah!!!!! not. I really have a problem with this whole buying presents and acting jolly. I don't feel jolly. And i don't see why i should have to give my kids stuff just cause it's a holiday. I gave them life is not that enough? They don't clean up after themselves. I give them money throughout the year for various activities,movies, shopping, sports. I spend half my time outside at sporting events usually in the cold yelling and screaming Go baby, run bubba, and get nothing in return. And now on someone else's birthday i have to spend tons of money of them??????please. I don't get crap on my own birthday much less anyone else's.

Let me clarify

You might assume that i am depressed over my parents death. you would assume wrong.I miss them both a great deal. but i know that they are both with God and i will see them again. My daddy was a southern baptist preacher and my momma was a saint. honest to God she was. Her name was Teresa and she would help anyone. If little kids needed school shoes and supplies it did not matter that she didn't know them she bought the stuff for them. she even built a well in a third world country so people could have clean drinking water. I know God needed her more than i did. It hurts don't get me wrong, but she is ok and i will be to. My daddy sold insurance until he hurt his knee and had many surgeries and no longer could work. He was not able to preach because of it. He was tough but I loved him. He found out he had lung cancer on my birthday. He was gone 6 months later. The man fought he really did. we drove a 100 miles one way every day for radiation and chemo. He just wanted to live ling enough to see my brothers little girl be born.He missed it by 7 months.I know that he was there anyway. Remember I see dead people. My mom never comes around. I knew she wouldn't, she always said we she died she wasn't coming back. I really got to know my daddy in the last few months of his life and i will cherish those talks forever. I did not know my mother was going to die. her heart exploded and she died instantly on the kitchen floor. I had talked to her twice that morning. She was coming to pick up my girls to spend the night with her. She never made it. She died on Sept.9 2005. Her mother died Sept 9,2002. Needless to say I get a little worried on Sept.9. not a good day in this family. I had thought about coming over to her house that morning but thought against it because i was going to see her that afternoon when she picked up the girls. I often wonder if it would have mattered if i had came.Would i have been able to save her or just watched her die. They say it was immediate. I don't know and It doesn't really matter now.You can't go back.

ok

It's official I have the FLU. I guess that's why i was a little crazy........I swear i am normally normal. sort of...... Oh well off to bed i go..........
after i figure out what to do with the rest of my life since i quit my JOB

All better for now......I Think...

I guess i have PMS or maybe i am bi-polar. I have mood swings and was on one. I am still feeling ill, but not so crazy. I adore my babies,but any mom knows they will piss you off. I really did call in and quit my job. oh well Hated it anyway. I thought i was going to to have to slap a kid yesterday so it was probably time to move on. I managed to piss all the senior class boys off at my kid's high school.ha ha ha. Dumb asses, they got mad and i was taking up for the dumb shits. go figure. i feel pretty again. yeah......This time of year has also made me a little crazy. I wonder if it is that crap called SAD or whatever. I feel better part;y because after i quit my job me and MR> Clean had some fun.It smell like a pine cone exploded in here...I love it.I cleaned and did the laundry,Smells good. Then i lit my cranberry candles (they smell like my momma) and laid on the couch. When my hubby came home he got me some Grandy's. (my big dog's name the way.she is a German Sheppard who eats my lawn furniture,but is afraid of a spray bottle) So I am better.Sorry for going all multiple personality eairler.